Sunday, April 10, 2011

most doomed i've ever felt

right now i'm feeling the most doomed i've ever felt, i'm scared about moving back to my parent's house (although i know i don't really get a choice) and i know its not like i have anything else going on, i can't work, can't go to school, there's really no point if i can help my parents out i guess that will be the entirety of my life, at least i'll be able to do something good. anyway, i give up. over and out.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

bad news with a sprinkling of more bad news and terror

i know its been awhile since i've posted or even signed on to this thing but there's reasons for that, my Christmas was spent getting my gallbladder out, then later March 21st to be exact i lost my best friend of 10 years, Excalibur (yes he's a horse but he was my bud) he got colicky and my trainer had to have a vet put him down, then later in April i get to find out that all my hard work getting a psychiatric service dog is being delayed because my father has been diagnosed with cancer, i understand why and i'm wanting to help as much as i can and anyway, that's my update, so enjoy i guess.

Friday, November 12, 2010

i don't know what to do

alright so i know no one really reads this but i need somewhere to vent >< it looks like mom's in stage 4 of her kidney disease, being her offspring i'm hoping that with lapband, a treadmill and some meds to work on protecting my kidneys and heart (since kidney disease and diabetes runs in my family) i can be a possible donor candidate since of course i should be a perfect blood match i'm terrified of this of course because if worse comes to worse and i get diabetes/kidney disease i'll have less time with only one functioning kidney but i don't know what else to do i feel bad in saying that my family hasn't really been there for me and my problems and i keep a wall up in dealing with my issues to save my family the stress but i need my mom and i need to be here for her and her problems....anyway i'm not expecting comments on this i'm tired, on meds and stressed so my view may be slightly skewed but...there its oout and now i can work on other issues like babysitters/service dogs/settlements/finances and well just other stuff....that is all, the end, fin


okay not like you care but here, its now time for something completely different




i love this lil sphynx boy more than you could possibly imagine >< 

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

New Dinosaurs!

okay, i'm not sure if i've ever explained this but i have a love for dinosaurs that verge's on the idiotic and today of all day's while looking at the unimportent news of msn.com (really why would i care who the richest person in the world is? seriously) i got the urge to switch over to aol.com and what do you think i found? DINOSAURS and not just any dino, no no, giant horned dinosaurs in the family with the triceratops (which i dunno if i've ever stated but they are like the coolest dino's ever....except for raptors but thats only 'cuse they're tiny and covered in feathers, seriously they're adorable) anyway the new discoveries were found in Utah hence the name of one of them being the Utahceratops meaning Utah horned face, here's a picture :)

isn't it beautiful? this behemeth was roughly 20 feet long and weighed 3 to 4 tons and scientists are baffled by their random horns which really couldn't be used for anything more than a pretty "hornament" (see what i did there? ;) ) and the other lucky dino to be found was titled the Kosmoceratops, it was about 15 feet long and had 15 horns decorating its awesome head, and the name Kosmoceratops means "ornate horned-face" which really? what better way could you explain this lil beauty?
anyway that's all the news i have for today other then going to the neurologist to be told the same thing over and over again (i did try to go in the room alone just to see if i could, results? i can i just end up bawling like a baby) anyway i'm in KC today and i miss my lil retard ninja cat of doom already :(

Monday, September 20, 2010

update on costume things

well i was working sewing shiny bits to my costume and everything while at the group home with my caseworker and she decided to show it off to everyone, i had to take a picture it was sadly the highlight of my day
sexy right? anyway for now this is all i leave you, trip to KC tomorrow to meet with my neurologist, anyway i know no one reads this so, ta-ta!

BLARGH

alright so i've been down right? well i've been trying to offset my down-ness with crafty shit like a retarded looking teddy bear that looks like a creepy stalker and sewing lots of beads and pretty shiny things to my ren faire costume and yes i know how lame that is but you know what? i really am that lame, and here i am trying to figure out what the hell i should do, looks like its either sewing some more shiny stuff or playing video games, decisions decisions
btw, here's the creepy teddy bear of doom, you've been warned!


look at those creepy eyes! they follow you, FOLLOW YOU EVERYWHERE

Sunday, September 19, 2010

drooling retard cat of DOOOOOM!

i'm back home and feeling a lil down, especially with the rough night i had last night, being woken up like 4 times by my cat standing on my chest or my pillow chirping like the apocalypse has finally come! its funny being woken up by this